An Embarassing Confession

I've alluded to it during the past 2 years, but I'm a fan of Pastor Joel Osteen of Lakewood Church, Houston, TX.  Why embarassed?  Because I'm the most vocal anti-Jesus-Freak I know, and I was afraid that's how I might be perceived from hereon-out.  That's embarassing to disclose, too; but I don't like anything which is overdone, here are some examples:

Gucci.  When I worked in Manhattan in the '80s/90s I became aware of women's obsession with designer brands.  I'd just emerged from 14 years of military life, moving around, trying to make a new home every few years; and high fashion wasn't a priority.  Anyway, one of my bosses knew of my distain for fancy labels, and after a business trip presented me with a canvas tote with a familiar logo but the word, "Goochy" plus a turkey character, I think.  Lost over the years.

Mother Teresa's another, I've got to share this story before I die:  I'd recently begun my current Workamper position.  One day I was filling out packets for the next day's arrivals and my back was towards my manager and another Workamper who were chatting about a recently watched film.   One of them (I won't point a finger) made a comment that, despite the actress's talent and popularity, she didn't think Julia Roberts was all that.

I'd remained silent because I was new, but following that confession I couldn't help piping up,

"Yeah, I feel the same about Mother Teresa."

I kept working but the room was quiet.  Worried I'd made a terrible faux pas, I turned around but both women were literally doubled-over in silent laughter.  That's likely the point they decided that, while inexperienced, I'd fit in just fine.

I'd better explain my rationale, for Oprah's on that list, too.  I don't dislike any of them, but it seems they start off with good intentions of helping others by offering tips and insights; but then they become celebrities and over time some lose sight of their original values, look at Dr. Oz.  Even Oprah regrets promoting him, that's a double-whammy.

When every book they read, film they watch or pill they swallow immediately becomes a thing, that's when I tune out.  I question whether they believe what they're saying or aiming for higher ratings, to hell with consequences.  Of course, these are my pet peeves - wouldn't presume to influence your opinions.

Two years ago I discovered Pastor Joel, PJ for short, while flipping channels, and over time became a fan, I won't say convert.  His channel is on Prime Video 24/7, which is nice because I'm often up very early and enjoy beginning my day on a positive note.  I do turn off any overly-religious parts, like baptismal commercials and lengthy prayers; nor do I listen to the gospel music or other speakers during Sunday Services - just him.

He pokes fun at himself all the time, and jokes about being criticized for the 'circus' atmosphere of his services; advising audience members his older brother, Paul (a frequent butt of PJ's jokes), would be shot out of a cannon.

People will always find fault.  I may detest the odor of incense in cathedrals, but it's only one element of Catholicism.  Mom always said that even if you only get one thing out of a book, it's worth the reading.

PJ and I don't share convictions over several important issues, in no particular order:  Abortion, Politics and the direction of one's prayers (I go straight to the source vs invoking Jesus).  Despite this, I would have no qualms attending a service if I was in Houston.

I've never heard PJ say anything bad about other people's views, and he welcomes everyone.  No Hellfire and Damnation against LGBTQs, pro-choicers or any other race or religion.  He knows that's not the way to achieve unity.

Many of PJ's words of encouragement, faith, and protection (against bad influences) I also heard from Mom throughout my life.  It can be scary, for he'll repeat what she said verbatim; and when the camera's focused on his face speaking directly to the lens, it feels like one of those movies when the TV person steps out of the screen.  

I'd forgotten much of Mom's advice until listening to PJ. Only now I'm more receptive to the words; plus better able to understand the moral-of-the-stories. I wasn't searching for a new religion but something else, which I found in this Pastor with a sense of humor.  Plus PJ frequently references Bible stories, which I always love to hear.

I'll bet lots of people are visiting churches other than the faith in which they were raised, and for different reasons. PJ encourages distant listeners to attend church - any church - because he claims it's beneficial to be among others while sharing one's faith, but I'm not up to that yet. It's easier to turn on the laptop.

I've derided televangelists since the time of the Bakkers and I don't know whether PJ is considered one or not, but it doesn't matter.  Some of his guests I can't stomach, either, but nobody says I have to watch.

Selective religion - why the hell not?  There are things the Dalai Lama says which I take to heart, too.  Bottom line, Joel Osteen has been a tremendous help - to maybe not understand why tragic events have hit, but at least I can appreciate how they have shaped my life and, in the long run, been necessary.

I'm not trying to convert anyone, just telling my story.  I continue to be a work-in-progress, nothing wrong with that.  Glad I finally purged, ahhhhh...